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Lush Love // Zara Larsson

My eyes is literally just half open. i need MORE SLEEP! but college life kan!?! uugghhh

it's 9.29 a.m. and i slept around 5 last night?!? cuz i celebrated my friend's birthday and it was CRAY CRAY. wow, Chinese really know how to party tho. they didn't stop with the shots, i was up to my limit then i was D.O.N.E! 

nayyhh, just kidding. no way in the world would I inhale alcohol. *well, we don't know future tho, but still* it was a just a simple celebration. we ate fudge choc cake *fuck it was damn good*, chill and talk on dirty inside jokes and just chill. yeah, get in a ghost house 'kinda'. till around 11 and it was fun and good. *well, i slept at 5 cuz youtube lah*

but the main thing i wanna talk about is how my friends expresses their "love" for me. ok, first let me just give you a little heads up. my friends, i'm talking about on how they express they love for me, are 3 Chinese Boys. let me emphasize again, 'THREE', not-Malay-but-Chinese-not-girl-but-boys friends. we got this "Babi Geng" going on, with another of my malay friend. i was so touched with them.

ok, the story goes like this. so it was Jimmy's birthday. and his girlfriend invite me and Mike *is the other Malay member from the Babi Geng* cuz his other friends are busy so it was just like us 2, her GF and him, and there's Chris and Hujan, and like 2 3 other friends. it was a small crowd. so we just chilling, laughing on dirty jokes and what not. the 'touchy' part was when i was inhaling on the cake. cuz it was a fucking FUDGE cake, how can i NOT? and they realize i ate TOO MUCH cuz like, i have diabetes. so they tried really hard to stop me from eating the cake. like they took it away from me, give me alot of plain water to drink. and they'll be like "Ummu, if you wanna play with my bike, u gotta stop eating the fucking cake" *yeah cuz Jimmy got a cool bike i wanna try*

i was really touched with the situation tho. it was like, wow they really care about me. the way they pull away the cake and 'condemn' me was a bit harsh, but yeah cuz i was resisting much with the cake. but they're boys. they're harshness is kind for me. it's the kind-est and most lovable thing they had ever done for me.*let's face it, they never ever be kind to me.ughh boys*

the other thing is that how they really *well, yeah quite a lot* know me. so, there were his other friends around, and they're also Chinese. so we joke around in Manglish and we laugh like crazy. so this friend goes like "HUH?!?" and they translated everything back into chinese for him to understand. long story short, it was about dirty jokes. so his friend was like "doesn't she fell offended or something" IDK he spoke chinese, idk but that is kinda it i guess. cuz Chris's reply was "nayy, she's good. she's always like this. we always jokes around like this" and he started explain that i have preferences for gays and my gaydar is quite high and stuff *ok, i'll do another post for this gay and gaydar thing* and it was kinda impressive for me. yknow, like they know me and understands me *sometimes* and they respect my interest. they even support me *hitting my girl crush in class too ;)* 

i was very touched last night, IDK if it was Jimmy's birthday or was it mine? cuz i felt celebrated. yknow having your friends got your back and feel secure around them. and i just knew them last semester and me click really well around each other. 

so guys, expressing love is not just through saying "I love you". there are many other ways people can express their love, like taking away the cake when you have had too much and cuz you got diabetes. or when they helped you hit on your crush *srsly 'Miss Hew' can you not get that i like you already?* and many other ways. especially boys, they know MANY MANIPULATIVE ways to say they love you. we just need to open up and see it in another perspective. i know they'll never read this, so let's put this in a simple sentence. I love you guys too, you guys are the best. 


and happy birthday Jimmy!

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